I'll be waiting.

there's so much to say.

so many things in my mind that i dont know how to deal with.

yes, i know maybe some of you guys are reading my blog,

well, honestly,

i was meant to be private.

i didnt want anyone to know about my blog.

but, no harm letting you guys reading it right ?

comment whatever you want.

i don really care whether its good or not.

its my blog.

*i swear i'm not being rude*

well, if you guys read my previous post,

you will understand my situations.

yes i know its hard to deal with this kind of stuff,

but trust me,

im over it.

somehow, i've learn to deal with it.

yes i admit its hard to deal with it at first, but as time goes by, you'll learn. you know =]

as for my relationship status,

some people might think im in a relationship,

ok stop it, most of the people thought so.

ahh, that. i dont wanna explain it so much anymore.

i just wanna say,

i'm really sorry baby,

i don have that intention to hurt you or something,

i dont know whats happening to me anymore.

everything's all.. messed up in my heart, mind and soul.

and, you do know that i'll be pretty busy soon.

i'm afraid that i don have time for you.

and , i know that its not fair for you.

i know its hard to say this,

but, i really hope that you would have fun with your friends,

don waste your time on me.

i don wan you to wait.

you might even loose your patient waiting,

i can understand.

but i don want things to not work out between us.

i have so much to say,

but yet, i dunno how to express it all out.

for now, i might be the only thing in your list,

but please, appreciate the people beside you just like how i appreciate my babes.

i guess i rely on them alot,

to be honest, i treasure them more than anything else in this world (family comes first okay)

somehow,

after my third relationship,

i had lost trust towards love.

i don go on relationship with people anymore.

i guess going through hard times made me learn something rather different.

i couldnt balance everything anymore.

sometimes, its really tiring trying so hard over so many things at one time.

and i dunno which one to choose.

i dunno what am i talking right now ,

but i swear to god tat i didnt play.

i really really didnt.

just give me some time,

i need time to chill down and think about all these.

i don wan us to break apart because of my selfish-ness.

i don wan to give you a bad image,

i just hope that nothing bad will happen to us.