I'll be waiting.

i dont wanna hurt him, but yet, my heart wants me to stop.

As people says, "Follow yr heart"

If following my hurt would hurt someone else. then i might be too selfish.

You shouldnt start that topic . IT WAS A BIG NO to do things like this.

N now, one word of yours had totally change me.

yes, i couldnt stop thinking about it.

i couldnt stop myself.

my frens were all calling me to stop it.

"u werent treated like how u were supposed to be"

i dont know.

was it me ? or was is bcoz i didnt treat him well on the first place ?

or maybe its bcoz of the age difference ?

i know what i want, i know what i need the most. but do you ?

ive told you, i don like you those stuff that ure doing right now.

it makes me really uncomfortable.

if its outside, then im alright.

BUT NOT IN SCHOOL.

you just don understand dont you.

i wonder how mimi solve this kind of situations when she was facing this last time.

i just wanted someone to understand me.

i just want someone to know how i feel.

i just want someone to listen to my reasons for being like this.

but i know, u're always the last to understand and know.

i dont want you to change bcoz of me,

i couldnt swear that i can be a good and caring gf / lover,

but i do know how to deal with some situations at time.

a guy like you,

yes, adventures, girls.

you do whatever u want.

u've never been through this situation before.

u're not afraid of a single thing.

but that is not gonna help me a single bit.

its making me more and more uncomfortable and insecure.

i have to be worried every single day that what if something might happen ?

who knows ? you and i wouldnt know whats happening next.

i might have taken the wrong step last time..

or, i might have encourage you

or just .. u simply wouldnt wanna listen to me.

every single day, im living in a world where i have to be worried with my surroundings.

for now, i just wanna focus in my exams.

i don wanna cause any problems in school.

i just wanna have a memorable year for my last year.

and its not even near my wish right now.

its getting further and further and its really tiring where i havta hide my feelings everyday.

i don wanna blame you,

but its really dumb for you to tell that particular person about that.

its a nightmare to me and you.

feelings come and go.

ull never know whats happening next.

or was it because i don feel loved at all.?

till i have to become like this ?

i don want this at all.

i NEVER ask for this AT ALL.